11-1-09

yesterday go out 11am,go green box sing k wif sam ,jim,lok,twins,alan,CK...long time ed all no gather,so damn high inside k box:)

finish sing k ,we go eat sushi king,walao...so long time no eat unagi d....den all play my camera da auto detect smile ,funny le =)

after nite time we go their primary skul fren birthday party,it's boring starting ,food finish,and i duno wat they chatting at all,can't join,so i decided to sit outside alone,but my brother all saw i vannish den come find me ,yeah~(or mayb i too big size,they wan forget me also can't)=p

den chat chat,finally we find some same topic,henry is a nice guy ^^coz he's man utd fans,lolx

after 12am we go out eat,den meet 1 more gal,chat bout some ghost story ,all is interest wif tat ,lolx,tat time is around 3am,all feel scared scared haha

we back home at 5...ck go my home slp,so me and him and jim back together lo

when we arrived home,de lift stop at G,den we push da lift button lo,but da lift won open,we keep push,it still no open,den we thought it rosak d ,so we decided to go up by staircase,but suddenly,da lift door open,and straight close,walao,scare tiok....normally,lift door open will hang a while let ppl in oni close de ma,but it straight closed up....scare scare

anyway,i'm very happy today...i can't hold myself to wait next gathering +)

最后，我决定写下这段，想要以后我自己看到

当惠的朋友突然提起我们以前聚会的时候惠有带男朋友来得时候，我就猜到，她应该误会了，那时我的心情第一个是超尴尬的，我不敢看过去一眼，一直看着健民那边，瓦老~但是，我很老实得跟你们讲，跟全部人讲，全世界都听这边来，我那时是暗爽，超爽，死贝爽，怎样，虽然不是真的，我还是很enjoy啊，对不对brother?

跟惠，我很满意现在的关系，有时玩起来，身体上的接触，已经越线了，可能她不觉得怎样，但那时的我真得很怕我会克制不到自己。。阿拉拉，还后我定力还是很好的。。

虽然我现在有一个很喜欢的女生，但我得承认我对惠的感觉没有变过，只是这几年来，我一直帮它埋在心里面，去尝试别的感情。对她，永远都没有delete,最多hidden file 而已。

我是一个很贪心的人，虽然明白难度很高，但奢望一定有，难道你们都不会吗？

其实她现在拥有着幸福，但我不是个好人，更不是个圣人

嫉妒时常充斥在我心里，理智控制不了感觉，我希望把这些都转换成我改变的推动力，就当为自己也好，不管怎样，朋友，祝福我吧~

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